Self love.

Self Love

There is something you should know about me. I love categorising  my writings to like a particular writing style,  like a poetry or an essay. But today will be different, I will posting my writing as something that does not have a name or at least I do not know what to call it.

 This is something I wrote when I was kinda feeling sad one day. You may want to know the reason for my sadness. The reason is, I was upset that I was feeling left behind and I felt like I will become a failure. I know all of those have those days but there is one thing I love about feeling bad, I always get the best writing from me. Is this best for my mental health? No, but does it have something positive to it, Yes. I guess I have been getting away from my topic. I finally have decided to give my writing a name.

 It is my first step to Self Love. I know I may have thousands of steps ahead of me. But I am going to take it one step at a time, enjoy each moment at each step.

Painting 

Everyone is painting a different painting than me. I cannot tell whose painting is the best. But it is not about whose painting is better but instead about filling the empty canvas with colours. Colours with different backgrounds, colours with different meaning and colours that makes one happy. 

I am often scared to show my painting to the world. The reason being, I fear the world will not find it beautiful  and degrade me to a  lower level than I already am. This thought has let to sleepless nights. I know these thoughts may be ridiculous to some but for me it is my reality. 

But this reality will not remain the same for too long. It will change in days, months or years. But it will change. I will reveal my painting to the world. The world will be happy to see it. That day I will be proud of myself  and I know that the words of others will not bring down the value of my painting, in my eyes. Because that is when the colours of the painting taught me to value it. 

Thank You💖

-MJM.